So 3 weeks into being a mum Olivia just stopped feeding, she would cry for food I’d give it to her she would either point blank refuse or she would throw everything she had, had back up.
I felt awful, I felt like I was a terrible mum and that I wasn’t good enough for being a mum, I took her to the doctor’s, they sent us to the hospital and they said nothing was wrong and to go home. I went home but nothing improved, took her back when you the hospital finally listen, she was treated for sepsis, and was told she could be cow’s milk intolerant. She’s now 12 weeks old she’s still sick after every feed even though she’s on similiac.
So I had just got over her having that finally felt I had got being a mum under control, I was starting to feel comfortable, then..
Just this week at 12 weeks 2 days she just came out if hospital after having bronchiolitis. She has a really snotty nose, a bad cough and was struggling to feed, so much so she ended up having to have a NG tube. She’s home now still not 100%, but she is self feeding again.
My issue is I see things in Facebook like oh my baby has never been poorly, my baby is always well, and this makes me feel like I’m failing Olivia because she’s been in hospital twice already, but I sterilise all her bottles, I clean all her clothes after every wear, she’s bathed or washed everyday, she’s fed to her requirements, she’s not lost any weight. But to see her so poorly and knowing she’s unwell makes me feel like a bad mum. I have also been told because bronchiolitis effects the chest and that her dad has asthma she’s more likely to have it. I just feel so bad and don’t know what else I could do.
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