The first 12 weeks.

What I have learnt with my 12 weeks if being a first time mum;

  1. It’s stressful, the constant worry of weather you are doing things, as this tiny person who you are now responsible for came with zero instructions.
  2. It’s hardwork, from labour to healing. From feeding to sleeping it requires, mental strength, determination and time. As new as it is for you, it is for them.
  3. It’s tiring, from the 3 hour feeding through the night, to have a baby constantly connected to you. It’s both physically and mentally exhausting.
  4. It’s a battle of emotions, although you are always filled with love for this little person, it can be overwhelming, scary, happy, sad and frustration, a. Because of the lack of sleep and b. Because you feel like you are going around in circles to try and resolve what’s wrong, but that sense of accomplishment when you do.
  5. Loneliness, for me the people who were there throughout my pregnancy who said they were so excited for her arrival slowly disappeared, they stop replying to texts or asking you our places, or automatically assume your busy for me this last week I have struggled with this the most.
  6. Responsibility, being responsible for feeding, clothing, caring and changing this little baby who can’t do anything for themself is massive but I wouldn’t have it any other way.
  7. The sense of purpose, for me I finally felt I had a purpose, although I was a wife and a graduate the is no greater feeling of purpose than having a child.
  8. Sheer love, never have I ever and I don’t think I ever will love anyone as much as I love my child, no matter what I will always love her with every ounce of my being.

I know everyone doesn’t always feel the same and people feel more or less of these but for me these are the things in the last 12 weeks I have felt the most.

I love being a mum, I couldn’t think of anything I’d rather be than my daughter’s mum.

Love

V.E.M

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